so much for identity ya. tit for tat huh?!
FINE.
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this feel like the period i had like 6 odd months ago. i never had the courage to get a clean break.
suddenly feel so lonely.
empty.
i guess, that’s just life, with ups and downs.
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oh guess what? i got blocked again! HAHAHAHhA
i have to stop pretending that nothing is wrong.
i cnt keep smiling and say that im okay.
im suffering, within.
some other magnificent sunsets of exeter(you can simply scroll ur mouse over the links to see the smaller version):
http://semaphoresa.com/walkabout/wp-content/uploads/2009/02/sunset-1.jpg
http://www.philipgoddard.com/download/sunset-exeter-10nov02-2.jpg
http://www.exetersurveyors.co.uk/exeter_4.jpg
http://image32.webshots.com/32/7/66/50/287276650IZltGa_ph.jpg
j says i could catch High Quality movies here! watched 2012! wao it’s like over 2 hours or mayb 3! watch here. click on the one with part 1 and 2! clearer and works better!
xav got so jealous(in a funny way) of me gg out with j for the past two days! haha he shd, j and i bought identical LOVE rings from river island
/blue collared top-dress/ribbon necklace.
from left to right:
1) black sequin dress: couldnt decide on gold
or black 
. loved the gold, but it was too translucent! =(
2) blue collared top-dress
3) grey lacy dress with peral necklace TOTALLY LOVE THIS! but it’s tight fit, omg i hope i dun get fat!
4) they call it the “bandage colour bloc” tube top
5) leather shorts!!!!! yeah! so happy! but i got it actual price, xiner got hers on discount few months ago=( i want the discount too!!!!
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xav got me to watch 神様もう少しだけ, really sad show, i cried throughout all 12 eps:
you’ve got to find out urself!! really old drama, 1998. you can find it here!
im so tired after that much crying!
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was bored, and i stretched my hand out into the cold evening to capture the pretty hues of red and orange.
i love watching sunsets, do u?
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MON 14DEC DEP 1815 SQ 319
TUE 15DEC ARR 1455
yeah! that is if it’s cfm, im just hyper now.
oh my the freaking key board in the com room is so insensitive!!! waiting for j to finish up on her report then we’ll go shopping in the CC!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha im super hyper now oh man!
like i did my presentation today. pam says im too t. people usually say we singaporeans seem too over confident(we speak too fast) with our english and chinese. even the china girl in my flat doesnt understand my chinese! like i have to speak really slowly to make her understand. in all, my presentation needs improvement. need to read less from notes. but i always get the feeling that i cnt think when i dun write my speech out fully. wells, THAT has to change!
report with kari was ok, she said it was good and relevant. but i expected an excellent. the prob with the teachers here, they arent very direct. so when they say it’s okay, u dun even know if it’s the truth or they’re just being nice. shd be keeping my report like this.
leaving in 10 days time!! i cant wait! as in i love shopping with j here, but there are seriously too few nice shops ard! plus stuffs being to overpriced!
j’s still not done(waited for 40 mins alr=/).
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im soooo bored! (i’ll give xav a call!)
(no one picked up, maybe he’s at lesson)
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that courage,
that effort,
that ambition,
that loving,
that xav.
im so pissed, suddenly rmb something xav told me a few weeks back. that slut(the same whore which i mentioned earlier in one of my previous entries – SLUT) asked if xav wanted to go to the disney land in Paris with her the coming summer(june). (%$%^$&^%^%@#$%^&*&^#^@#$%^) – my meager attempt to keep my wordpress vulgar-free.
she got fucked so many times that she wont even know who’s the daddy of her baby. hypothetically that is.
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anyways, was supposed to do my report, i think i’ll leave it for today. AND OHHH, i wanna go to the disney land in HONGKONG!! i heard the fireworks were snowflake-shaped!!! like wao! thou i dunno if it’s only for winter.. i so love the disney land in japan!
2 more weeks and im going home, alone. xav’s going germany to ski, i wanna snowboard too=( but oh well.
things arent going too well, i think it’s the distance again. plus my mood swings(which he says it’s an excuse). what i need most is understanding from him.
if he isn’t the one, means he isn’t the one. so smile cindy, smile.
im very much chill about stuffs, dont wanna quarrel anymore. BUT, oh wdv.
i still have much to learn=) don’t we all?
took this compatibility test for fun!them refers to xav:
and tried another one(so as to prove to xav that the 25% meant he was not observant):
SimilarMinds.com Compatibility Test
you are 64% similar
you are 69% complementary
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xavy just left! haha we’re seriously weird ppl! he came over at like 5-ish on friday. he did his test in less than 20 mins and came rushing over(train ride is about 5 ++ hours)! i made potato salad + 1 huge bowl of fried rice(he eats alot) for dinner!. he came over this weekend, cos he couldnt for the next two(he has tests) + germany/london/blahblah for him and his jc friends after 12th dec.
omg and after dinner, he decided to sleep at 8pm! cos like 8pm over here seems like 11pm alr, the sun sets at like 3/4pm and it’s totally dark by 5pm!
decided to go river EXE for some sightseeing, but there was nothing much to see! omg!!!! like some greenish-river with lots of ducks/swans.
attacking the swans(the queen’s animals, which could be jailed for hurting them)with my japan umbrella!
was freaking cold, i think im falling sick! like 7 degrees C, but i was shivering like mad. xav rather let his fingers go cold, than mine=) and he HAO LIAN-ED about his timberland gloves the other time! i can still rmb!
we decided to have nandos for lunch. i was so irritated by the cold and needed somewhere to rest our feets! srsly, the brits shd do womethig about their roads, holes everywhere! many ppl at nandos, we were told to go back at 2.15.
(he wrote 2.15pm)
guy @ the door(can we just call him doorman for simplicity’s sake?): what is ur name?
cin: cindy.
(he wrote E -_-ll)
cin: C. I. N. D. Y. cindy.
(he wrote: S, cancels. CYN..)
cin: it’s C-I-N-D-Y.
okay wdv.
then we had nth to do for an hour, went back nando’s earlier. so that i could just get to sit on the sofa and wait.
cin: we were told to come back at 2.15. (i din manage to finish saying that we WERE EARLY).
door man(in a freaking irritated tone): YA, but what is your name? i need your NAME.
i dunno who offended him first, but he said it to me(when i was so irritated by the cold), that was so wrong.
was he blind that he couldnt see, the one , and only one which says 2.15 has a cindy written there! (roll eyes)
cin: CINDY, @ 2.15…
doorman: ur too early! it’s at 2.15! (YA DUH, din i just say 2.15? i know i was early!)
i was SO annoyed by his attitude, anyways.
cin: okays, wdv im not eating here then. what stupid service is this(and i made sure ppl heard me)?!
why m i here to pay tips and service charges when i dun get anything proper from air-head people here. if u need the money, need to work, the least u shd do is to be polite.
i admit, i always scare ppl ard me when im in a bad mood. j agrees, haha so sry j!!! really sry about the other time! HAHAHAHA <3
went to raj india instead, i was so in love with the chips there anyway. well chips anywhere are nice, but not as nice as compared to when xav’s with me.
saturday was soon over. and yeap
oh no, 1.44pm alr! i have my history question! omg british history is OH MY GAWD!
Did the policy of “appeasement” of hitler make war more, or less likely?
one) what is it? NEVER, EVER heard of it.
two) i m so gonna die a confused kid.
three) okay bye, need ta do work. sigh*
relationship status: it’s complicated.
i have so much i wanna rant, but it just cnt come out.
just got back from singapore, and i have a presentation due next week, history essay(contributes to 50% of this module’s marks), report for kari, and i so omfg dunno what im supposed to do! ARGH. and plus the quarrels, feeling so maxed out(haha this term reminds me of someone). i have no food in my fridge and im so lazy to go buy stuffs. dun feel like gg back to sgp alr, wanted to do so to spend quality time with xav. but he’s always so selfish. like he runs away from quarrels/hangs my calls so as to get his things done. but why cnt he just try to talk things out? i cant do anything when my mind’s in such a mess. and yes i refused to even start work, that’s why im blogging here. i need ASSURANCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, not a guy who hangs/runs!
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Two souls with but a single thought,
Two hearts that beat as one.
-Friedrich Halm
bro’s wedding photos are here bro\’s wedding 221109
it was such a short period of time in sgp. i fell straight to lalaland the minute my skin touched the surface of the bed! haha exaggerating. i love going to weddings, love dressing up and see familiar faces.
ong! i always had(aka past tense) a crush on F(my cousin), since primary sch! haha OMG! no one knows this. (oh gosh, i hope he doesnt read my entries, yeap i think he doesnt) we took a photo tgt(well not really, my sis was standing beside him). the the crush-y kinda feeling. infatuation or something. i think it was becos we used to spend so much time tgt(PLAYING DUH). oh i so miss marshall! i’ve not seen him in years! =( oh ya, as i was saying, marshall, F, A, and some others used to play tgt.
ah seng has all the rest of the photos btw. i din take much, cos bro had his photographer there, and he looked really bored like he had no one to take, hopefully he took some interesting ones! cnt wait!
the wedding was fun! felt emo when i had to fly back to uk, but i’ll b back in another 3 weeks time! <3 omg! so excited! i think the brits like to pile all the work up at the end. -_-ll now i’ve so much work to do! tsk. weddings, such beautiful things. who’s gonna get married next! get me to be the bridesmaid! hahaahahahahaha i din get to be one this time round! =( on second thoughts, maybe no, cos bridesmaid dresses are usually very ugly(so as to not steal the limelight from the bride, apparently what i heard ! HAHA).
Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end.
i wanna find my love. my just a EMO kid! hahahah
im tired, gonna read up on contract, shit man, missed so many lessons. BYE!
we’re back again. and off, and on, and off. but ya, on.
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im back in sgp! omg the so many freaking hours of train and plane ride almost killed my fragile back! OMG! so tired. slept for a total of 2 hours and yeap, survived 2 days with contacts on for 73872398749 hours.
missed bro’s r.o.m. today. tmr’s dinner gonna b so pretty! sis and i are gonna wear similiar dresses, she’s gonna wear the ed with black stripe, and mine’s a black with red stripe. it sounds ugly, but it’s uber cute! currently have my sk2 mask on, and i look like such a ghost. gonna do my nails tmr! and im gonna sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NIGHT
